1 month liao..

so fast so fast..!!
1 month liao..~
feel tat i just start to pick up my job..
but feel tat my performance is so slow..
sad.. sad.. sad....
so cham la.. just 1 page.. 2 weeks oso cant finish..
how?? how?? can become faster??
but really.. tired de leh..
i m not only programmer..
still become "ku li"
a girl crawl on the floor..
try to imagine..how its look like..
terhantuk head.. nearly fall down..
today feel some faint faint when stand up..
really very tired liao..
after those thing.. still cont my coding..
never imagine tat a intern programmer need like tat de..
but wat can i say?? wat can i do??
can i say NO??
i go there everyday..
the operator almost all can remember my face d..
they still ask me.. izzit need to record everyday??
coz always miss out smtg there..
i always have to go back the same line to verify different thing..
how leh?? when i can finish it..??
after i finish it?? wat have to do somemore??
who really will pity me??
who really willing to help me??
yes.. i never ask for help..
y?? i seldom get some help from ppl..
unless.. i really cant do..
keep complaining.. actually i just wan to vent out..
coz like tis i feel better..!!
haiz.. i wan transformers!!
today.. tat XXX said me outdated =(
who wan watch transformers with me??
i wan to find who acc me go to watch??
haiz..
to be cont la..

3rd week liao..

3th week liao..
but i still not get used to working environment..
i still cant pick up my workingn my skill..
haiz.. dunno how..
feel tat programming skill not good..
n lots to learn yet..
be4 i feel my networking skill bad..
now feel tat programming skill oso bad..
wat to do?? izzit i m dun hv talent in IT??
be4 de result all is use my time
n my work hard to gain..
wat should i do..
feel so sad i cant submit project on time..
haiz..
now feel my working ability is very low..
how to improve tat??
i ade try my best.. since i enter uni..
i doin everything i oso try my best to do it..
but now.. i really very tired..
tired till my brain very traffic jam..
go to work n back from work
i oso have to worry my driving skill..
go to working.. i have to worry my programming skill..
n my communication skill..
yesterday just nearly faint..
feel wan vomit n very faint when face to coding..
but luckily got colleague here..
they talk a lots of joke..
make me feel better..
but now get closer with my colleague d..
at least now dinner oso won alone d..
got ppl accompany me..
feel so nice.. haha..
hope tat next week my performance will better d..
god bless me..
good luck to me..

my driving experience.. =.=

within this week.. many things happen to my car..
all is bcoz of my mistake..
haiz..
car crashed..
then today.. so stupid case..
today go to Queensbay alone..
feel ok oso..
buy the thing i wan..
and then walk to the shop tat i wan to go..
quite freedom de..
many ppl asked me.. go to alone??
but y cant go to alone??
may be i get used to alone d..
for sure.. if got frens acc me..
must be better..
but my frens is not around penang island..
today spend much oso..
but all the thing is need to buy..
after shopping for 4 hours..
wan drive back liao..
who know..
i cant start my car..
=.= wah.. suddenly very worry n scare..
how come 1st time drive out myself to mall..
become like tat.. y so sui??
who know is myself so stupid la..
wait for help about 1.30 hours..
only know wat exact problem to my car..
after check.. only know..
me on the car light..
i guess i m when turning my car steering..
terswitch on the car light..
cause my car no battery..
sigh..
y seems everyday oso got news about my car..??
m i so stupid??
wat a "good" experience of today??
driving car really have to be aware of many things..
hope tat it won happen again..
sigh with my driving experience..

2 week d..

time fly..
so fast intern 2 weeks d..
but haven start my real work yet..
hmm..
met so many big jie jie and big ko ko here..
tis 2 week happen many matter..
but dun wan to shout at here..
haha..
i just know..
seems my face is showing my heart..
y they can so fast can know i m wat type of ppl??
izzit i m the ppl tat cant hide my emotion??
EQ so low de ppl??
haiz.. but i feel i have to improve tat..
also my communication skill..
feel tat i m not good in tat..
since i m the one not good in express myself..
but all the big jie jie and big ko ko still caring of us..
so happy to meet them..
i m so expected got so many big ko ko like them..
if my bro still here.. then very nice..
haiz.. i m thinking for the sad thing again..
today was my bro birthday..
hmm.. bro i d continue ur dream..
work in motorola.. as a trainee now..
will work on programming..
do u can see tat wat i achieve??
wish tat u will know..
return to my topic..
hopefully i can remember all the big jie jie n big ko ko name..
hehe..
1st.. must list my supervisor name 1st..haha..
peng kuan, see mun, choon yi, ian wei, SJ, goo, "ricky" & "martin"
and 1 more hugo.. but i guess he same year with me..
that we always eat lunch together..
and another team big ko ko..
same room de tan, and gary..
and cheong.. today 1st day talk with him.. hehe..
hopefully i m not miss any big ko ko name.. coz its too much..
if yes.. forgive me.. hehe..
tml they go to kayak.. i wish to go de..
but.. i dunno swimming somemore no pair..
so now headache tml wan to go where d..
thank you my big jie jie n big ko ko..
thank for the caring me..
haha.. coz i m the one tat always blur, n stupid..
till here..
to be continue..next week..

别再为他流泪 - 梁静茹

别再为他流泪 - 梁静茹

作词:黄婷 作曲:易桀齐 编曲。吴庆隆

你走了太久一定很累
他错了不该你来面对
离开他就好 就算了 心情很干脆

他其实没有那么绝对
远一点你就看出真伪
离开他不等于你的世界会崩溃
转个弯你还能飞

就别再为他流泪
别再让他操控你的伤悲
就算有一点愚昧一点点后悔
也不要太狼狈
他不值得你的泪
把那遗憾留在大雨的街
你曾在迷失的旅途中盲目追
以后为自己醉
以后管他是谁

每段感情都非常珍贵
他的好你就放在心扉
记得有个人曾让你那样的心醉

你笑了照亮夜幕的黑
什么梦都不比你的美
多少年以后想起他还有些体会
那些你已无所谓

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最近的我爱上这首歌
一直很想找它
可是一直忘记它的歌名
今天在办公室
听见同事在播放
这首歌真的可以很陶醉
谢谢他传给我

不如说说我第一星期的intern
还没有很忙
还习惯那个环境
只是不习惯那个上班时间
觉得同事们都很nice
呵呵
每天都都一大班一起用餐
很喜欢这个感觉
晚餐就自己一个人了（可怜 T.T）
昨天晚餐约了一起intern的朋友一起吃
今天晚餐就跟那个给我这首歌的人一起吃
嘻嘻
说真的，五天里我不曾跟他说话
今天才开始有说话
跟我坐在一起的两男
原来他们没有我想像那么酷
只是他们忙到没时间说话跟笑